"first day funk..."

it's official...

wOow...I can't believe I'm actually back in school..! isn't it great.. i was 
actually looking forward to this. heck! this was the first time that I was
actually excited about going to school, not that there should be anything to be
excited about...it's just the thought of getting out of the house for once and
doing something productive, which excites me! not that i dreaded sleeping,
watching TV, eating, eating, eating, and oh yeah eating! (sure em gonna
miss our hanging-out sessions boo and ta-boinky) ...for the longest time I've
been dead board with this oh so mundane summer les vaccass (as the french call
it).

ever since I was a kid i had a thing against first day of classes (i hated
it) would you believe i still get nervous whenever i go back to school up to this moment. that's one
thing i never understood and could never seem to get over, i mean i've been
going to school for like my entire life but still i get nervous. and when i said
nervous i didn't mean the butterflies-in-your-stomach type of thing (how i
wish)... it's more of the heart-pounding-sleep-depriving-stomach-hurling-gut-wrenching-LBM-causing-episodes. it literally alters my entire physiological
as well as my psychological well being. now tell me is that normal? clearly, its
actually more of fear rather than nervousness...

i could even remember my first ever
first day of school. i was in kindergarten back then, it  was this
pre-school few blocks from our house. i was accompanied by my yaya (ate kathy! o
db i can still remember her) i could vividly remember it. i was standing in
front of the classroom, when my yaya suddenly said, "sige ba-bye". then that was
it. there was a lot of my yaya pushing and my teacher pulling involved and a lot
of crying too on my part. i felt betrayed and my beloved yaya sold me out to
this...this stranger-teacher. maybe i was never really able to get over that
trauma...but the weird thing is on the next day i was perfectly ok! weird
ay?!?! i never really had a good experience when it comes to first day of
classes ever since that day...

so now i am back in school.. for the first time after 2 mos?!?
well i can say it all went out smoothly as i expected it to be...not that i was
expecting anything to go wrong, maybe somehow after all those years i was
actually able to overcome one of my greatest fears. heck, for crying out loud, i
think its just about time that  i get over it. it was in fact my last
first day of school (yeah baby! senior year) and i overcame it
and was victorious. i will surely miss my first day experiences.